Monday, December 15, 2008

Recommitment

I'm sorry I've been one of those bad bloggers lately. The truth is, I've felt a total lack of inspiration. Every time I sit down to write a post, I've stared at the screen with a blank brain. It's frustrating.

As for the fight to stay healthy and fit, I'm not giving up. I've fallen off the wagon more times than I can count lately. And, since the marathon, my exercise has been sporadic at best. I keep looking back to the first weeks and months of my weight loss and wondering how the hell I found the motivation.

It's a tough time of year to be healthy. The wind chills are dropping, while the amount of sweet treats are rising everywhere. I can't seem to escape the gluttony and hedonism that is so prevalent during the holiday season.

When I saw Oprah's latest cover, I felt really, really bad for her. Here's a woman who is worth more money than I can even comprehend. Millions of people worship her and think she should run for president. She can have anything she wants...almost. The fact that, yet again, she wasn't able to maintain her weight loss proved that money can't buy everything. Even with my paycheck-to-paycheck lifestyle, I have something in common with Oprah Winfrey. So many of us do.

I'm still not giving up. As of this moment, I am recommitting myself to a healthy lifestyle. I ran a freaking marathon. I can do this.

12 comments:

Lori said...

I'm rooting for you. Each day gives us a new chance to be healthy and active, that's the good thing, right? You never run out of chances :D

LastJourneyDown said...

Come on Morgan! You can do anything you want. It starts as a germ of a seed in the mind and grows as the intensity of your need to get "it" done expands! Go for it! Ditto Lori's words! xo Miche

Heather's House said...

Hey Morgan ... you did it once, you can do it again. Why don't you just not start again until the new year. That will give you time to get the "gluttony" out of your system, make a plan and psych yourself up for it. I too feel for Oprah. We are all the same. Remember, it's an addiction, not that easy to overcome. Good luck girl. I'm cheering you on.....

SeaShore said...

You ran a marathon and wrote such an inspirational post about it. You can do anything!

Anonymous said...

I disagree with the comment about waiting until the new year. I understand the thinking behind setting a "start date," but after struggling with binge eating for many years and "starting over on Monday" about 4,000,000 times, I've seen that it doesn't work. It's safe and comforting to say you'll get the gluttony out of your system and start your diet days/weeks from now... but how do you feel when Monday/January 1st comes along? Bloated, depressed, deprived, hungry and ready to binge - yet again!

The best way to start over is in the moment. You've proven to yourself that you can pull yourself out of a binge before, and I think that's one of the most powerful indicators that you can do it again! Right now, pick yourself up, brush yourself off, be NICE to your body (not punishing) and enjoy living healthy.

Anonymous said...

Morgan, I agree with Anonymous. There is no time like the present. I know you already know this, but why put off till the New Year what you can start today? I NEVER make "New Year's Resolutions". To me they are pointless - you can resolve to do whatever whenever...

But whatever you choose to do, know that you have a whole lot of people rooting for you!

kate said...

It is good to hear from you, Morgan! I hope you know that there are people out here really rooting for you . . .

mongolove said...

I agree with the anonymouses. Anonymousi? Anonymouses?

Every moment is another chance.

And, all that aside, you are still incredibly inspiring, even during your more challenging times.

Babycakes said...

I still thought Oprah looked pretty good, she can sort of carry it off. I just want to start eating Christmas chocolate right now, so hard when it's cold out. Enjoy reading your blog.

russellorama said...

Reading your post made me feel better. Not because you're struggling, but because it helped me realize that I am not the only one having a hard time right now with fitness and nutrition. Thanks for sharing your story with a total stranger.

Anonymous said...

Morgan, I wanted to check on you and wish you a Merry Christmas. I know you are feeling frustrated and uninspired. I've gone through a recent down spot myself but I seem to be coming out of it. I'm blaming it on hormones :)

You are very tenacious and I'm sure you'll figure it out. The therapy seemed to be really helping so stick with it and don't be too hard on yourself. You're an amazing person and you'll find your footing.

Here's to a happy 2009 and putting one foot in front of the other!

Mary in TX

Sally Parrott Ashbrook said...

I think sometimes after you have a 'big win' of some sort in your health journey, it feels like it should be a finishing line where you get to quit concerning yourself with it for a while. And sure, we can do that for a little while, but if we do it too long, we certainly pay for it.