Saturday, August 30, 2008

Lockdown

Right after my 18-mile run last Saturday, I was a bit hazy. I don't remember exactly how it happened, but I got a visit from my nemesis- the one person who I've lived in fear of and tried to avoid for over a year. I got a visit from myself. Or, I should say, my old self.

She moved into my body and psyche and completely took over. For the old me, exercise is something reserved for self-righteous zealots. In her world, there is only one god: food, and lots of it. So, there has been no exercise for 9 days. No healthy eating choices for 9 days. It's been a fun visit, but she's got to get the hell out. I want my body back.

So, I'm starting over. I'm looking deep within myself to remember the reasons I started a healthier life in the first place. It's lockdown time. I'm ready to get back to the roots of this whole journey.

I'm back!




6 comments:

spunkysuzi said...

Well at least you've put a stop to it!! Not always easy! But you know what to do and how to do it ;) Good luck and keep posting!!

Linden said...

But you're the New You! You can do it. 9 days is nothing compared to the 365 you've been the New You. Don't give up. There will always be hard days, days when you give up, days when you get lazy. But that doesn't mean giving up, and you aren't! That means something!

Anonymous said...

Morgan ... it's time to update your weight! Don't worry, we're not judgmental... we all go through what you are. Maybe you haven't gained anything which would really be awesome, but if you have it's OK, you'll get back to it. Keep up the good work!!!

deanna said...

And better than eva, I am sure!!

kate said...

Good for you, Morgan!

Nicole1113 said...

Morgan, I found your blog on peertrainer about an hour ago and have read most of your blogs. YOU ARE ME (just about 8-9 months ahead). So you are very very inspirational. I just want you to know that. Not only do we have EXTREMELY similar weight/fitness goals, our senses of humor are so similar! I was as big as you were and am on my way down to about 150-160 also. In one of your blogs you said if you hadn't made a change, you could have gotten to 600 lbs. - ME TOO!! I am completely addicted to food and still am even though I am down about 60 lbs. It is good to know that even with food addiction, you were able to drop over 100 lbs. and RUN MARATHONS!! MY ultimate ultimate goal is to run a marathon and to see that you have done that in a little over a year is ASTONISHING and gives me SOOOOO much hope for myself. I will be tuning in regularly. Basically, I just want to say - THANK YOU.