Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I have to confess

Just a couple hours ago, I wrote about how great I was feeling after being on the wagon for 2 days. Not 30 minutes later, I was eating cake, mini-snickers, and chips at work. Why did I do that?! We have a new head honcho at our office, and twice he has bumped scheduled meetings with my group. I think this is both annoying and disrespectful. It implies that he thinks our time isn't important. Anyway, I was feeling pissed off, so I ate the stuff that I'd avoided earlier in the day out of a sense of entitlement.

To top it off, the suits are treating the whole company to pizza today. I have my lunch of lovely leftovers all planned out, but will I able to resist the aroma of pizza? It's going to be tough.

My therapist and I were talking about the "all or nothing" mentality that is so prevalent in the weight loss world. Part of me thinks this day is already f***ed and I should just eat the pizza.

My last post was called "ups and downs," and this is a prime example of that.


Kristin said...

Hi Morgan,
I thought I'd leave you a comment because I saw your other comment re comments (and I am in your same position with lack of comments, and ergo, readers). Plus I have tons of stuff to do at work so this seemed like a perfect time to do it.

Congratulations on your super weight loss. I lost a lot of weight a few years ago (100++) and I know exactly where you're coming from.

I completely understand the compulsion to nosh even after eating clean for a few days and knowing how much better that is. I find that happening especially after doing "well" for a few days and dropping a few pounds, so that I feel like I "deserve" a treat. This is why my weight has been fluctuating within the same 5-10 pound window for almost two years without any additional downward movement!

I could go on and on, but I really do have things to do. I look forward to going back and reading more of your posts (maybe later when I'm really, really busy), and I'll list your blog on mine. (Not that it will bring it much attention or anything.)

Good luck, keep up the good eating and running!

Anonymous said...


I love the honesty of your blog. You appear to be completely, utterly honest here and I wanted you to know that I really appreciate it. I'm not happy that you are not happy with your food decisions sometimes, but it's so inspiring to know that someone else feels like I do; would do what I would do in a given situation.

You are a daily read for me now that I have embarked on a weight loss journey...for life.

I for one-- read other blogs and see how some other folks rarely let a piece of chocolate enter their life post weight loss. I just can't see a life like that for myself. If this is going to stick, I'm going to need a few chips here and there. That's just the way it is going to be.

Thanks for the update about your life/weight loss/attitude towards food/ exercise. I look forward to my visits here.